Written By - Raj Kumar
March 24, 2017
Written By - Raj Kumar
I am a male PWS. I was born in 1996, now 20 years old. My parents originated from Shanti Niketan, West Bengal and are currently living in Gurgaon. Currently I am pursuing hotel management from Instiute of Hotel Management, Pusa, New Delhi.
For the first time in my life I realised that I was a stutterer when in 5th standard my teacher asked to recite a poem from a book. I realised that some words didn’t come out smoothly as they were used to before. The teacher asked me if I was nervous. But frankly, I wasn’t. I just went home and realised how much of an issue this can be.
Years passed and life went on and I just grew up with mild stuttering but was able to participate in an extempore or speech competitions and even won a few of them. After my secondary exams I changed my school. The people were new there and I felt lonely. I was slowly becoming an introvert person as I hesitated to speak to the new faces as I feared that they might judge too quickly. I made a couple of friends but was never the first one to start a conversation.
Two years went quite lonely for me as there was almost no interaction with any of my classmates and I always chose the corner seat where I would not be disturbed. My practical board exams got start and I was preparing for them. Things were going well until the viva. The viva I something like they are throwing stones at you and you have to dodge them. It was tougher for me than any theory exam. The teacher divided the students in groups with each of them having 5 students. When my group’s turn came I was the first one and I knew what I would be going through. The teacher asked all of us to tell the names. I stuttered in my name but somehow got it out. It was my turn and the teacher asked me question. I stuttered horribly and wasn’t even able to complete a whole sentence. The teacher asked me to have a glass of water and come back later. I went outside to drink water and I was thinking that when did I become like this. I was shocked to my core. I came back later and the teacher suggested to the take the viva with only me and not in any group. I agreed. He asked if I was nervous and uncomfortable. I was but I told him I wasn’t. He just told me to relax and answer the questions. Somehow I managed to complete the viva and the teacher wished me to do well in my life and not care about what people say.
After a few months, I moved to college. It was a new chapter of my life and I was afraid that the same would happen in college knowing what happened in school. On the first day itself, I made new friends and I always initiated the conversations. They asked if I had some problem in speaking and I frankly told them that I am a stutterer.
During my second year I noticed a boy was stuttering while ordering something from the canteen. I went upto him and asked if he was also a stutterer. He smiled and said yes. We became buddies after that. One day he said that he found a website which helps people overcome there stutter. We found a contact number from the website and we did not call but messaged, because of obvious reasons and found out that he was the admin of TISA Delhi SHG group. Soon we got the details and attended the first meeting and we were surprised that there were so many people like us. After that we attended some meetings and we felt much better and our morale was quite good.
The college was the best part of my life until the campus placements started. I always kept quiet in Group Discussions and was mostly out of the first round itself. One of my subject teacher told me that I should speak in Group Discussions as the panel won’t know that I stutter until I speak.
He even made me practice to speak in GD’s. Many companies came and I tried hard but couldn’t clear the GD’s. My first break came when Burger King came for placements and I was selected for the Panel Interview. I was nervous but happy. My interview went good and I wasn’t nervous as they already knew that I stuttered. The result came out the next day and I was selected. I couldn’t believe
that I was selected. I informed my parents and they were very happy and proud of me.
My college is about to get over and I have my final exams in May. After that I would be joining Burger King and finally I feel that I have achieved something inspite of the fact that I am a stutterer and it makes me feel very proud.
March 21, 2017
Next day kick-started with parantha as a breakfast and tea. Our first session included an inspirational talk with Sachin sir. He also explained about a phenomena called 'valsalva' which was very interesting to know about. We discussed our experiences about the 'stranger talk' and discussed other ways by which we can approach strangers. Dhruv facilitated a session of 'SMART' goal setting, both for individual and respective city SHG's. We discussed and a representative from every city shared their goals for next 6 months or a year, which we will be followed up regularly. An evening tea did its job and we did some role plays. We also did dancing, thanks to Anuprita for the wave step she taught us. We did some other fun filled activities, sher o- shayari in the evening. A mock interbiew session was also conducted for many SSC/CGIL/IAS aspirants.
A good bye underwent and we concluded the workshop with some pictures. These two days made an impression on all of us, which was also a life changing experience. We wish to imply all the techniques we learned and follow all our goals.
As Lao Tzu said, 'The journey of a thousand miles begin with one step''. Keeping this in mind, we took our first step towards self improvement.
March 20, 2017
|From Right Mr. MANOJ VISHNOI, RAVIN, PRAMOD JI, JASSI. PARAMJEET SINGH|
|From Right NITIN ,ASHMEEET SINGH From Delhi, Sumit, Ravin, Alok, Jassi,|
|RAVIN, JASBIR SIRJI, PRAMOD I, JASSI , KAPIL ,SUMIT|
|MANOJ, PARAMEET SINGH|
|Jasmeet and akhil |
|JASSI, GAUTTAM, SUMIT, KAPIL|
|PARAMEET BSNL, ALOK RBI, JASSI ZTE, RAVIN IT, SYED LAW :-)|
March 18, 2017
And also the need to practice for a long time, the ideas introduced in the 2 day workshop etc.🛂⏳ Because it is like learning a new language. So, give yourself some time. Dont be in a tearing hurry.
Oh yes, we also did mutual videography, while phoning strangers. Some ambitious participants ordered a new Scorpio, some explored exchange options, some phoned the bereaved families..
Yes, we all had put on our Van Heusen shirt with brightest possible orange fashion statement, haklao magar pyar se..👕💓👅👄 Some of us even slept in our designer shirt..
We also discussed about valsalva phenomena and discovered that :
when you r in an interview-
u r not in the loo 🚽🚾 -
so why strain? And have pain?
With no gain? 🗿🐝
Then, Dhruv facilitated a session on goal setting, individual as well as for the group. Also, how to hold ourselves accountable to these goals...🔨🔧🙌 🎯
Then, some truly funny role plays, 🐒 👺 Which I am sure only Pws can conceive and execute!🎭
Anuprita 👸 taught us some graceful dance steps.💃. Mock interviews, self assertion role plays, sher o shayari..👻 Then, we parted as family parts 😩.. Sad but sure that we will meet again. 👼
Soumya's parents came to greet and bless us on the last day!
March 17, 2017
March 5, 2017
March 2, 2017
Theatre Hat-ke is presenting their play "Taramandal" on 4th March, 2017 at Montfort Spirituality Centre.
Taramandal received the Hindu MetroPlus Playwright Award in 2010. It's written by Neel Chaudhuri.
About Theatre Hat-Ke:
Theatre hat-ke is a group originated within Bangalore SHG and as a result of the acting classes, we have had since January. The first batch of acting classes culminates with this final performance of Taramandal.
February 27, 2017
February 26, 2017
So it's Sunday morning!
Weather was cool and sunny🌞✨
So wait with anticipation is liked to be over.
Vastrapur lake was more beautiful as usual today.
so we were 5 members me, Vipul ,Vivek ,Harshil , Anant .
A meeting was Hosted by Harshil Damor he came with some unique agenda which we never had seen before.
So Harshil did guide us for first activity which was speaking on any Topic for 5 min but ..but... with closed eyes so moral was This activity speak anything that in your mind without seeing anyone face expression so ya that can be reduce the fear while expressing yourself to anyone.
Then second activity was something like same but with closed eyes as well as Ears so obviously it's like funny but we did for once
And we appreciate an idea and dream of Mr Vipul for opening a school for stammerers.. was really well
In final activity we did individually shared our a parrelel journey of life towards joining TISA from a bad stammerer , we shared our all efforts that we all did for manage our stammering
So A new member Anant showed up with brilliant idea to make documentary on life of stammerers so on next SHG meet we will start working on that
So finally proud to say Ahmedabad SHG is Ready for Next level
#Blessed to be a stammerer
February 24, 2017
I am one of those peoples who stammer.
Part1: LIFE BEFORE TISA(7 TO 23)
I found myself stammering since my childhood
My parents told me that I was fluent speaker in childhood and I speak very fast but clear.
I had learnt Gayatri Mantra when I was of 1 yr. I don't have any idea about exactly when
And why I started stammering. I used to run from any situation of speaking since then.
During my school days I avoid book reading, taking part in stage acting ,debates, asking my doubts Talking to all the classmates and schoolmates as well as teachers. Although I get good
Marks but I was unable to express myself in school days, whenever I got into any fight with
Anyone they says phle bolna toh Sikh le. Had a lot of bad experience during school life. It was
Like hell living with stammering ,I was anable to even give my introduction to anyone , I don't
Found anyone stammering like me around. Although my father is homeopathy doctor he was
Unable to cure my stammering. I have visited lot of other doctors with my parents but nothing works . I have seen my mother crying worrying about my future. My cousins, neibours
School mates copy my stammering in front of me and it was very embarrassing moment for
Me. I was hopeless but living my life with stammering.. I have lot of inside me which I want to
Tell many peoples ,I wanted to speak in public express myself but I was unable. One day my father found speech therapy institute at Amer in Jaipur . They have sent me there for one month
I learn prolongation there and after one month I found myself speaking very fluent and clear. I
Got more confident more energetic enthusiast and optimistic. I thought that I won biggest bettle of my life in very early age(15). Finally I cured my stammering . I was feeling like top of world very happy and my parents were also happy. Everyone telling me that I am speaking very good
Even better and fluent then normal speaker. But after few months it started again and even wrost then before .. I don't understand what is going on with me. I followed all the rules of
Speech therapy but I started stammering again. Hell it was. . After 1 year I was at same place from where I started . Then many times I gave weeks and months to my practice keeping myself
Locked in a room . And I got cured really again and again but it was very difficult to maintain that fluency . After 1 month I pulled back to the same situation. And my whole childhood ruined in it.
Before going to college I again took speech therapy by same institute but the same story repeated itself for next 5 years.. got bad experience in college. Bunked lectures , presentations
Left debates, acting, Anchoring, avoid girls , seniors . Lived a life in which I speak publicly very little only in emergency situation. Keeping my friends ahead for giving attendance, asking my doubts and even giving my introduction( Amazingly bad it is).. this is more then hell. I feel like I am dependent on others. It takes 10 times time to asking for a ticket on ticket counter.. social sites really helped alot making myself social making friends , new girlfriends, and expressing myself. But when that girls ask for mobile number or meeting I was like shitt . Wt I gonna do now to hide my stammering. I always hide my stammering . Even i was full of sweat whenever I have to speak .. but the clock never stops time goes on..
During college placement times I assured that I got maximum marks in written exam round
to compensate my performance in interview .. and it works for me . I got job in IGI AIRPORT as electrical services engineer. But my struggle with stammering was still going on. In my job I have to make and recives many departmental calls and solve the technical issues by Automation controlling for which I was trained. I was doing my job good but talking on calls created issues for me. And I was kicked out of that job within a month. They gave reson that I stammer alot so they don't work with me anymore and promised me that they ll send on another site but this was their excuse they never called me again.. I was crying because everything got finished in my life that time. My knowledge my talents and skills abilities efforts degree all are waste without a fluent voice. Trust on God get overed. I have no courage to share this with my parents. But life goes on . I do another job of building automation engineer and in that I also have to meet clients make calls visit sites meet new people work overnites travel different cities but I was managing because I have no other option.. same time I was searching other methods to get over from this.
Part 2: LIFE WITH TISA
One day I have seen a boy speaking on stage about stammering and the banner behind him"HAKLAAO MAGAR PYAR SE" i was stunned by seeing that .. I was thinking what is that I have never seen this before a person talking on stage publicly everyone clapping for him he was stammering badly but he don't stop he was enjoying his stammering and people too.. I got his name in his introduction speech I Facebook that and found that guy. I asked him what was that where was that place then finally he gave me contact of DELHI SHG MEMBER.. and I go for my first sgh in March 2014 in Delhi central park. I had meet there many ppls with same stories and experiences and talking openly about stammering and enjoying their life . . By meeting Sikander Sir , Vishal, Amitji , Himanshu , Aashish Lakra and many other persons I feel really good . I have a wonderful experience with lot of them. One new word I hear with them was" ACCEPTANCE" .
I was totally unaware about this. Sikender sir tell me about acceptance in my 4th 5th shg meeting. Then I decided I never run from situation from now I have to face everyone and every situation courageously and get over my fear of public speaking .. then day by day I opened up myself about stammering.. I tell everyone about me in office ,clients ,meeting, metros, new friends ,on social media , new girls , to my boss , family members, copassengers .. and relise that it was U TURN for my life. I was getting over from my long years depression. I started enjoying doing this .. and till now I am working on it.. I lived in many cities in last 3 years Delhi , jaipur ,Ahmedabad, Jamnagar, Mumbai,and from last 1.5 yr in my hometown. But my way of thinking about stammering and my life is totally change. Now stammering doens't embarrassing me anymore .. I don't feel bad anymore when I don't able to give my introduction . All this I got from MY TISA JOURNEY. .
Hello all! I developed stammer when I was in 3rd or 4th standard. And by 6th I became fulltime stammerer. Bunking schools in oral tests, persuading friends to attend my roll call, Literally avoiding each&every situation where I have to use my speech. Became quite silent person, cause I know if I’ll speak I’ll stammer, and if’ll stammer rest of the world with their arsenal to fire their advices, cures, “Nuskha’s”, and more over their tease. I was just fed up with everyday advices like be confident, don’t get nervous, pull your tongue, stretch it (like it’s a rubber band huhh).
I grew up with advices like”muh me kalimirch rakha karo” & all that crap. By the time i passed +2 I became quite a stubborn. Since I joined TISA in august 2014, and met with Sachin Sir, my perception towards my stammering changed completely. I no longer feel as stammering is a problem for me. Its more like a part of me. I have many awsm frnds like any other random guy, I enjoy life like any other random guy and the best part is people focus on what I say cause of its content & not how I speak. Stammering also helped me improving my writing skills. Yes It may sound funny but due to my stammer only I focused very much on what to say and which word/language to use, so much so that I can now proudly say that I'm an okay okay type poet/shayar or whatever.... The point is I feel that It is because my stammering only that I am the Atul singh which u all know. If I wouldn't stammer I might have been a completely different person and might be not better than I am today. Stammering not only effects your speech, It effects your thoughts, your body language, your nature and in my case your soul too. I feel like me and my stammering are kind of made for each other. We often compete with each other , every time I have to give any presentation in my Institute. And I quite enjoy that.
Here is the Youtube link for my Video bio: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXDgkINzWCo