LIVE IT AGAIN AND AGAIN

Post from Mohit Dwivedi:

Ever felt the soft breeze blow against your face? Ever heard a bird in the early hours of morning? Ever felt the sound of the rain drops in your garden? If no, then you probably have not experienced the wonder of nature. If yes, then you should know the beautiful ways of communication of nature.

Communication is the feel I try to focus on here. How nice does it feel when there are no barriers of communication? When an orator speaks in front of a thousand people and they just get hypnotized. An actor performs his role on the stage flawlessly and the audience gets a glimpse of the entity emerging there. Or when there is a group of friends trolling down the lane, a sense of unity and compassion can be seen.

Yes, it feels very nice indeed and the truth is that I miss it. I miss it now and I missed it in the past in my school, my college, everywhere. Unfortunately, those days will not be lived again and a major phase of life is over.

But, I definitely have the hope for the future. Here, I remember the lines of Swami Vivekananda, “Arise, Awake and Stop not till the goal is reached!” I feel great to get associated with TISA and I’m already feeling the vibes of positivity around.

Here, I try to discuss my life, up and downs of my life. I will be dividing this into three portions- My School Days, My College Days and My Transformation Days.

My School Days

According to myself, I was the shyest person I could ever imagine. And this shyness was not because of my nature but because of my helplessness. The big question, “What if?” was always there and still it haunts me sometimes. There were days when I would go to school, attend my classes, come back home- and not a single word uttered. Whether it was classes, laboratories, outings, reading paragraphs from the books or talking to your class mates- it seemed to be mammoth task for me. And this fear grew into a big monster as the days passed by.

I remember when I was called for the viva and asked the first question, I could not utter the first line of my answer and my viva was over. I was misunderstood for being an introvert and who does not socialize. But the irony is that I was not able to tell them that it was not so :-D.

But I’m lucky in the sense that all the people I met in my school life and who are still with me are very supportive. Be it teachers, my friends, my class mates, my tuition mates, everyone. By the end of my school, I just had a desire in my life- I wish I could live it again!

My College Days

College Days means that now it is time for your youth, it is the time of all fun you can ever think of. College is the most happening experience for you- fun, booze, love, affairs, trips, bunks, and the list goes on. I took admission in engineering although I wished to enroll in Delhi University. It’s alright; you just cannot change your fate.

I remember when I took admission in college, there were supposed to be introductory Personality Enhancement Program. And this was the first thing in my life which gave a boost to my confidence. I felt lively, happy and participated in all the activities provided. But once it was over, I slowly crawled back into my den. My stammer came again to haunt me all through the years.

Everyone around me was having the time of their life by making new friends, girlfriends, boyfriends and I was just a recluse in my own world. I didn’t talk to anyone feeling ashamed even before I make a move. Then finally, came the final year of my engineering which has an alternative name- placement year.

Unfortunately, I was not able to appear for my interview because of my low grades as I was pathetic in engineering. But, what if I were able to appear for the interviews and group discussions? These questions still haunts because I need to appear for those in the near future. Again I had a moment of perception that- I wish I could live it again!

My Transformation Days

Now what exactly am I supposed to mention here? Let me summarize it here by saying that I am striving hard to do away with all the imperfections I have. Firstly, after six months I see myself as a fit man who indulges in different activities like cycling, gym, swimming and jogging. Then I wish to learn meditation for I am in a desperate need of focus in my life. Thirdly, I need to study hard so that I can crack my Civil Services. Then, I am a blogger who likes to write on health and fitness on my blog www.mylifemystyles.com and I would like to pursue onto a whole another level.

Last but not the least, I want to speak now. I want to communicate with people. I want to share my feelings with this world. I want to motivate people and embrace them on a journey of transformation.

Now we have our whole life ahead and I wish to live it as much as I can. I wish to travel, meet new people, learn new traditions, learn harmonica and flute, try out different cuisines, learn meditation, roam the Himalayas on my bicycle. I had lived in misery for my whole life and now my speech cannot stop me. I will strive hard and change the course of my life as I can see the silver lining in the far horizon!

And finally one day I will say- I wish I live it again and again and again!

Editor: Congrats Mohit! Beautiful write up. You ARE communicating already.. Your second life begins.. Open all your rockets full steam! BTW- you have a nice blog! Keep writing...