October 2, 2012

My stammering after 15days intensive therapy

This is my first blog after realizing that I am what I am. I got info. Somewhere that many young PWS mis-understood my first blog, but my first blog is only about the description of Intensive speech therapy and some part of my feeling. He understands that the stammering can be cured in 15days. But this is totally wrong. How can you cure your so long stammering habit in just 15days? How can you be so fluent in 15days? How can you eradicate all your memories of stammering? It’s just impossible, but yes the behavior, mentality regarding your stammering can be cured. I am the person who stutters 23years, till now I am not as fluent as like normal one. I too stutter now and I am still accepting that I am a stammer, but yes not a severe one. The only reason would be that I’ll change my mind, my emotion regarding stammering. This therapy helps me a lot in recovering my stammering, but not totally. I have taken 4 therapies till now. The other three doesn’t work because I never practice sincerely as like this intensive therapy and also you may say these therapies never touched my mind or soul and emotions.

So I got dishearten from everywhere, no job , no talking to friends, no family support. So the boy who does not get anything from life, that boy is always hoping for some hope, some positive rays. That I got from Dr satya mahapatra. Frankly speaking I had done blind faith to him. He says ‘If you want to cure, just follow my instruction step-wise-step. I heartily followed his instruction and he also says ‘that only focus on your fluent part of your speech, never ever focus on your block’ this really helps me to recover from my depression as I always used to focus on the diffluent part of my speech and got frustrated and depressed, so why would I focus on my negative part which gives me depression.

Yes, dr satya has changed my life, by only changing my mind, my soul but not totally my speech and fear. This has to be done by myself only no one else can do this for me. So this therapy works if we focus our mind totally. When dr satya called me, I thought this was my last chance to cured, so I followed his instruction step-wise-step. Yes, I also stutter now. Many times I got stuck in very tense situation like in fortune shop, sabziwala, asking address from auto driver and even with my father’s friend, it really hurts. As sir said ‘Be happy about your fluent part, not of dis-fluency’, so my life became good. Yes, I have no fear, no anxiety when I used this technique in public. People sometime laugh, look weirdly, so what?? Who the hell they are, why would take care of him? I know that I am doing great. Anything works if you accept that you are stuttered and also if overcome your fear (i.e- daar kea age jeet hai). Yes, it takes lots of practice. I don’t know when I got cured totally, but yes I had taken my first step.


PP...Pramendra said...

Yes Mohit our stammer has grown up with us and deep rooted into our heart & soul. In fact, sometimes I feel like it is a part of me. I don't know about cure but we can learn how to detach our self from our stammering. IMO it is equivalent to cure.

All the best!

sachin said...

Thanks Mohit for sharing your truth. your feelings, your lessons..
I think everyone benefits from such sharing.

J P Sunda said...

Very well written Mohit. I hope you and Gorav are having a great time in Herbertpur

Jitender Gupta प्रथम said...

Ise ham simple word me ACCEPTANCE kahate hain!

Ravi Prajapati said...

Mohit can u give me your contact no. I want to talk you.

Vinod Kumar said...

My friend mohit....Thanks a lot for sharing your feelings.....other surely will get benifit from this...!!Have a nice time ahead...!!