April 2, 2012

myself see as an observer......

this is not only a picture of circus. it is a good example of trust.before 10 months i join tisa . a lot of question in my mind. why am i stammer?,why am i so different w.r.t. other? what can i do so that i become a good speaker? which type of techinique more help me?can i speak without any axcitment or without using any secondary features? if yes then how? after attending two workshop a lot of confusion had solved. but there was a big problem that how can i maintain this type of practice, motivation , self analysis. i first trust in tisa, shg and its techanique.also believe in myself that i am right and i am at right path. shg helped me a lot .i observed other pws how he stammer? and i was being observed by shg friends. and after some time i able to observe myself stammering and my fear situation. and facing my fear situation a lot of time and observing so closely it become more comfortable. so after a long time we will be able to take a decision which techanique is best for me. in other words we can say that "TISA , SHG AND ITS TECHANIQUE IS  LIKE AS MEDIATION JB TAK HUM ISE FOLLOW KARANGE NHI TB TK US PARAM ANAND KI PRAPTI NHI HOGI"
 i become more aware of my stammering thought, concepts, old perception,techanique, and more comfortable with real life situation. now a days i try to make  an  observer . situation are around me are same but i try to see with a positive attitude.
like as:
"i am depressed"  can become  " i am a little down"
"i am very nervous"  can become " i am recharging"
"i am lonely" can become  "i have shg , tisa and open for love"
"i am overloaded with stammering" can become " i am streching myself to discover my capabilities with the                      help of tisa and shg"

*until we become aware of stammering and what are the secondary features are and begin to struggle with them ,understand them, there is a very little hope for change.
*taking stammering and its mental pain and projecting our logical ideas for the future.
and it is possible when we trust, follow, have patience and being an observer.


Er. Umesh said...

Wow!! Slowly changing effect your mind and thoughts. This is the real progress in recovery. I observed in you that you always believe in yourself and have dare to take big steps. Keep this spirit up!!

sachin said...

Yes- unless you can see yourself very OBJECTIVELY, you cant change very much. Meeting ohters in SHG, is like standing in front of a full length mirror.. It truly helps- but slowly and steadily..