MY LIFE WITH STAMMERING

My name is Ashok Mohan and I am from Kerala. I am going to narrate few situations faced in my life due to stammering.

I stammered from my childhood. I was not bothered about stammering in the early years but things got changed when I grow up.

During +2 days at school, I used to travel by bus. The fare to my place from school is Rs 3.50. I can't say the name of my place since the word is not coming out of my mouth. So, I simply give the exact fare to the conductor. One day on return to home, I don't have the exact fare. So I walked all the way to my home.

On another occasion, when I was chatting with my friend, he told me that he has also developed stammering because he was having friendship with me for years.

During college days, there occurred several incidents that made me depressed. I know the roll number but I can't say it many times. I can't keep up  with my friends during conversation. I think they were avoiding me. During 6th semester, we were having seminars. All my friends got tensed the day before seminar. But in this case, I won. I got tensed years before the seminar. I fore calculated what will be my performance for the seminar that I will get rejected.

There were several situations that made me think that my life is like a hell due to stammering. I wasted my time  and money for a magical cure for stammering and ended up in a failure.

But the reality was not what I thought? The seminar head told the class that the best seminar was mine. I can say the place name correctly for many times but I stammered only for a few situations. The conductor has 2 options. Either he should wait for me to complete the place name or he should allow me to travel as a free passenger. Why should I bother when my friend told a cheap comedy that he caught stammering when speaking with me for years? There are fools among people like him who can't know what stammering is.

Who is the real villain here? Is that stammering? No. Its NOT. There real villain is our thoughts. We are normal people. There are people without legs, arms, eyes who are still living. Then why are we wasting our life thinking about this very very very silly matter called stammering?  We are looking forward to our life based on stammering like "should  I get a better job because of stammering, should I get a good family life because of stammering etc".  Change your thoughts. If our thoughts are positive, then our life will also be positive. If our thoughts are negative, then our life will also be negative. Its not stammering who decides what your life is. Its is you who decides what your life is. NEVER EVER GIVE UP IN FRONT OF STAMMERING. Just enjoy it.