January 21, 2012

MY FIRST BLOG


I am Amol karale.I am a pws from pune. Actually I hails from ahemdnagar(city 120 km from pune).As my father was being serving in Indian army so he posted in pune.He is retried now. Currently we are planning to settle in pune .

I am stammering since class 6th.Till class 5th or 6th starting I was proud that I am a good reader. Teachers always tell me to read in class. Suddenly in class 6th I noticed that I am speaking somewhat different. I was repeating words. I was speaking very late. Teachers and my classmates starting nagging me   “arre thik se padh aise kya padh raha hai  dheere padh na bhag kyun raha hai”.

I noticed sometimes that I was fluent but at some situations I was blocking or taking some time to speak.I was blocking while reading teachers told  me that “atak atak ke padhoge toh ye chapter kab khatam hoga tum mat padho” some other student will read that chapter. My thinking changed after that I was thinking that I am not able to speak. I became a silent person. I always prefer last bench so that I can hide from teachers.I was not even noticing what I was doing why I am doing. I tried to escape situations where I have to speak. Whenever new session of class begins, like during starting of class 9th the first thing teacher do is taking introduction. At that time I was even blocking at my name. Teachers say repeat your name again. I noticed that my stammering was getting worse day by day.Whenever a teacher enters into class my thinking was that “aaj mujhse na pooch le kuch pooch liye toh kya hoga student’s kya sochenge teachers kya sochenge”. During parent teacher meeting teachers told my parents that he does not speak in class, does not answer any question. These were the days when my stammering got worse. My tuition teacher also told my parent that “ye atak atak ke bolta hai”. At that time even I and my parents don’t know there is a speech impediment naming stammering. Parents thought that I am afraid of people. So my parents also started to nagging me as it is natural that if a child is speaking properly in home but when goes outside speaks in some different way.

Suddenly I get relief hearing when I came to know my father posting has come. But it was also making me tense because of thinking of new school new friends’ new teachers. At new school I was fluent for some time (I think the reason was I was not thinking about stammering).But slowly my speech showed its true colors. Teachers were telling me to recite news or thought at stage during the school morning assembly I somehow manage to escape that situations. I started judging days as good days or bad days. My mindset got fully changed I was saying no to every task, whether going to shop or to friends home or tuitions. During class 12th in my practicals I was not even able to tell the aim of practical which I have performed. I somehow manage to pass class 12th from school.

Now its future time I never have develop any interest in any entrance examinations like CET,IIT,AIEEE I thought that how will I be able to do engineering if I am not able to speak I heard that during engineering we have to give lot of orals exam and presentations. I decided to do Bsc in computer science .First year of graduation gone well. But in second year there were presentations to give as I not expected that. I somehow manage to skip these presentations also. I lost my concentration from studies to stammering. I was always thinking that what will I do if I am not able to speak? During the ending of second year I came to know about stammering from a television show. At this time my father came to know that there is a speech impediment naming stammering. Then I started taking speech therapy in pune .I get little relief from it but not completely. I was thinking that I am wasting my parent’s money in speech therapy since my speech was the same again. At this time I have almost lost my concentration from studies. I somehow manage to complete my graduation but I got less marks here.

There was biggest question in front of me what to do next?????

I decided that I will also do post graduation. I have 2 options to do Msc(computer science also known as MCS) or MCA.I decided to do MCA because MCS is a 2 year course and per sem we have to give presentations and MCA is 3 year course here I will get more time to work on my speech.

Currently I am in first year of mca. During the starting of MCA I came to know about TISA. Pune shg was not regularly taking place.But the coordinators somehow take time and conducted some shg meeting. Here First I came to know that ACCEPTANCE is solution for it and after accepting working on it. After that I started accepting that I am person who stammers I told my friends and my teachers. As a result teachers give me time to speak. Friends also wait till I complete my sentence. I don’t feel any guilt in stammering now. My attitude towards stammering has changed now.

I never thought that acceptance will be a solution for such a problem. THANKS to TISA and pune shg coordinators MR. pravin dixit,MR. sanjeet khanujha,MR. Rupesh Mishra. They have taken some time from their busy schedule and come for meetings.

At present I am trying to form a Pune  shg again with some pws .I know there is much practice needed to get progress in speech. I am concentrating fully on my studies now as to get a good job I should get good marks first and practicing various techniques like bouncing, slow reading and prolongation.
 Again Thanks to TISA
Sorry for any grammatical and spelling mistakes

Amol  karale


12 comments:

sachin said...

Thanks Amol, for this great sharing. We all have walked this very path. I too had great difficulty giving attendance in the class.. But, thanks God, things have changed and we have more options than suffering quietly.
Shall we talk some day on skype? My id is satyendra.srivastava
Let us fix a time by phoning or by sms : 09412058272

sachin

Mohit kumar said...

Amol Thanks for sharing your post. We all had this bad time in our life, but we must carry on in our life as stutters and you opted a very good line MCA, here you don't have to speak much meanwhile you can do practices or attend SHG and improve your speech
Hope for your best..

Anonymous said...

Good to read an SHG has made a positive difference in your life. Hope you continue to progress...

Yadgar.

amolkarale said...

@sachin sir.currently i don't have a proper net connection.I am trying to get a proper net connection.As soon i will get a connection sir i will contact you and then sir we may chat.

amolkarale said...

@mohit i am practicing various techniques like bouncing and prolongation.Pune shg is not regular but whenever coordinators are ready we conduct shg meeting.

Er. Umesh 9068322345 said...

Wow!! Great Amol, your expressing power of thoughts is so good. You are a brave boy!! I am sure you will definitely got what you want. Keep the spirit up!!

Ravishankar Gautam said...

Hi, i am Ravishankar i am doing my engineering in pune, i want to attend SHG meeting but have not attended even one because, I wait for every Sunday but for last 4 weeks no SHG meeting have been conducted.I think that SHG meeting should be conducted
every week,on weekend(i.e. Sunday)and and whoever interested can come to attend.This will provide a great help.

Ravishankar Gautam said...

Hi, i am Ravishankar i am doing my engineering in pune, i want to attend SHG meeting but have not attended even one because, I wait for every Sunday but for last 4 weeks no SHG meeting have been conducted.I think that SHG meeting should be conducted
every week,on weekend(i.e. Sunday)and and whoever interested can come to attend.This will provide a great help.

amolkarale said...
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amolkarale said...

@ravishankar: actually shg is not taking place because of less number of members.We may conduct an shg on 29 January if members and coordinator agreed.If you want to join shg contact MR. Sanjeet he is coordinator of shg.His number is 9860090408.His email address are sanjeetkhanuja@yahoo.com, sanjeetkhanuja@googlemail.com.You may also contact me at 8888783618 or my email id is amolkarale9763@gmail.com

amolkarale said...

thnx umesh your wordings have motivated me to write more.I will definitely write more blogs.

lalit said...

g8t Amol nice post ,thanks for sharing ur experience.. while reading ur post i was remembering my past..i also faced many problem in school and college time..i always use to sit on last row so that i can escape from teachers.....keep on writing..keep on sharing