Peaceful Retreat

Dear fellow PWS,
This post is to connect to heart.
I want to play basketball.
I don't want to complete a book by fast reading, I want to read it a bit, think about it, then write a bit about it then read it again and continue the process.
I want to spend many hours solving one mathematical problem only.
I want to stammer freely by forgetting what people think about me.
I want to learn flute also. I want to give a try to Yoga as well.

I wanted to do lot of things but I just realized this now. I just realized that I was busy in setting goals for me and achieving them. I don't know whether I really wanted to achieve those goals for me or to prove it to society.

I was in peaceful retreat organized by Sahaj Foundation for three days in last weekend. I stepped back from my usual life there and thought what I really want to do. I realized that I'm living lot in future, some in past and present is nowhere. If mind state is like this, how can I be happy.

Now want to do the things I love. I want to stammer without substituting the words. I want to read the books with my own pace without showing it to anyone that how many books I've read. I don't want to watch any western movie/ series if I don't find it worth watching. I want to walk like monkey (walking + jumping) without thinking what people will say. I want to challenge myself on mathematical problems.
I want to do the things what my heart (♥) says.

Vikas Ranga