When I was 18, I used to think that I will rather be dead at 50 because life of old men can be so tragic and painful!
I am 54 now, and think that I am doing fine. In fact, sometimes I feel that quality of life has never been so good: free of impulses, worries, more warmth, more creativity, spontaneous.
So, why is it, we as a race, are so poor at predicting our future happiness? Sometime back, I read a book "Stumbling on Happiness" by Daniel Gilbert (thank you Karen, for the book!) more.
As I have understood, it is because we lack emotional intelligence- and also we will not trust others' wisdom: for example- think, if your mother, father or grandparents made a match for you, will you trust their wisdom or your feelings for the girl you are in love with..today?
When we try to imagine future, we tend to pick out selective things and base our judgement on that. We rarely doubt our mind. Some years back, I went on a trek to Rupin pass - dreaming of great fun and adventure. I did have fun but also long spells of rain- and finally had to be airlifted out of SANGLA by IAF!
All this and much more came to me recently, when I met a young pws friend whom I had tried to help as a counselor about an year ago. I believe in learning (more) from my failures and this case was obviously a failure- from my perspective. So, I asked him indirectly- what went wrong? how was it that he never fully engaged and went off a tangent...
His reply was illustrative of the problem we all face as human race. He said: I ran off because I thought you would ask me to accept my stammering. I just could not tolerate the thought of spending another day as a stammerer..
Wherever he is, I wish him all peace and success. I know that things will change for him- no matter what he does or fails to do. That is the nature of life. If it goes down, it comes up too. Of course, I tried to help him understand that acceptance in his case meant - OK, I acknowledge that I have a problem. But instead of hating my problem and bashing my head against it day after day, let me think calmly what can I do to help myself..
Problem with most of us is: We keep looking at the closed door with such anger and for so long- that we fail to see the open doors next to it..
Acceptance of the present moment does not preclude use of human freewill to act- but when you act from a calm position of accepting yourself as you are this moment, you achieve much more and move forward easily- otherwise you enter a dysfunctional relationship with "my stammering", which may bog you down for many years.. because as they say: Stammering is what YOU do, in order not to stammer..
Here is a beautiful talk by Eckhart Tolle about how acceptance and human free will, can act in consonance (not in opposition). It is deep and one may have to watch it couple of times.. and discuss it in your SHG or with a friend..
In conclusion, let me say, for me acceptance is an attitude to life itself- not just to speech, sickness or loss..and it has made my life at 54 happier than I thought at 18, was ever possible.
I am 54 now, and think that I am doing fine. In fact, sometimes I feel that quality of life has never been so good: free of impulses, worries, more warmth, more creativity, spontaneous.
So, why is it, we as a race, are so poor at predicting our future happiness? Sometime back, I read a book "Stumbling on Happiness" by Daniel Gilbert (thank you Karen, for the book!) more.
As I have understood, it is because we lack emotional intelligence- and also we will not trust others' wisdom: for example- think, if your mother, father or grandparents made a match for you, will you trust their wisdom or your feelings for the girl you are in love with..today?
When we try to imagine future, we tend to pick out selective things and base our judgement on that. We rarely doubt our mind. Some years back, I went on a trek to Rupin pass - dreaming of great fun and adventure. I did have fun but also long spells of rain- and finally had to be airlifted out of SANGLA by IAF!
All this and much more came to me recently, when I met a young pws friend whom I had tried to help as a counselor about an year ago. I believe in learning (more) from my failures and this case was obviously a failure- from my perspective. So, I asked him indirectly- what went wrong? how was it that he never fully engaged and went off a tangent...
His reply was illustrative of the problem we all face as human race. He said: I ran off because I thought you would ask me to accept my stammering. I just could not tolerate the thought of spending another day as a stammerer..
Wherever he is, I wish him all peace and success. I know that things will change for him- no matter what he does or fails to do. That is the nature of life. If it goes down, it comes up too. Of course, I tried to help him understand that acceptance in his case meant - OK, I acknowledge that I have a problem. But instead of hating my problem and bashing my head against it day after day, let me think calmly what can I do to help myself..
Problem with most of us is: We keep looking at the closed door with such anger and for so long- that we fail to see the open doors next to it..
Acceptance of the present moment does not preclude use of human freewill to act- but when you act from a calm position of accepting yourself as you are this moment, you achieve much more and move forward easily- otherwise you enter a dysfunctional relationship with "my stammering", which may bog you down for many years.. because as they say: Stammering is what YOU do, in order not to stammer..
Here is a beautiful talk by Eckhart Tolle about how acceptance and human free will, can act in consonance (not in opposition). It is deep and one may have to watch it couple of times.. and discuss it in your SHG or with a friend..
In conclusion, let me say, for me acceptance is an attitude to life itself- not just to speech, sickness or loss..and it has made my life at 54 happier than I thought at 18, was ever possible.
3 comments:
Good post Sachin. My comments to this post may not relevent but may be a parallel one.
I so far given counseling to about parents of 8 CWS of the age group between 8 yr to 12 yr. I gave printout of "How parents of a PWS to behave". I also gave a printout of "How teachers to behave with pws students" and requested them to hand it over to the class teacher.
About one month back I gave counseling to a father (a software engg) of 12 yrs old boy in a coffee shop and spent for about an hour. The boy was very enthusiastic and ready to do anything to get rid off stammering. I asked him whether he could wait for 2 years. He immediately told with smiling face that he would ready even for more than 2 years but wanted to speak well. I informed to his father to attend next Chennai SHG meeting. But they did not turned up nor given any information till this date. Though I am having contact details of all the above parents, as a policy I never call them again because I felt that my job is only giving information to them and it is upto them to make use of it.
This is the status of all the 8 parents. Whether parents themselves not accepting our methodology or not believing our techniques?.what is the fate of these cws?. May be their karma.What else is the reason and what can we do? Any suggestions pl.
@Sachin Sir : Excellent.....one of the best heart touching..inspiring ..post..
@Manimaran Sir : I guess the parents you mentioned are scared to accept that their kids actually stutter..and they feel once their kids join SHG's , they would legally be tagged as a Stutterer..those parents need to be counselled..
Thank you for taking the lead in spreading awareness..
Yes, Mani- people (parents) suffer from all kinds of fears..as Joy pointed out. Also, stammering is such a phenomena, that we tend to believe that there is a magic solution somewhere..I just need to wait and find it out..
If the child had eye problem, they will promptly do whatever needs to be done..
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