Two years ago (I was 22 yrs old at that time) i was riding my motor bike without helmet , usually i don't ride without helmet this was my first time and ‘luckily’ I was caught by the police .I got very frightened because this was my first interaction with a policeman & i was without helmet and also i was a stutterer. Suddenly by blood pressure shoots up. My heart was beating so intensively as if it would explode within few seconds and i would have a heart attack.
I requested the policeman not to take challan, but he didn’t listen and he asked for the papers -Driving license, RC (Registration Certificate) , insurance ,pollution etc .I found that I didn’t had any pollution and insurance paper at that time . I got more frightened .I gave my driving license and RC to him .He took his challan pad and started writing my bike number and then he asked my name .My god, How to say the NAME ? I tried but ‘GORAV’ was not at all coming so told him my name is “HARISH”. He looked into my driving license and said that your name is GORAV DATTA but you are saying your name is HARISH. (Now I was dead).
He asked the other policeman to put me in the jail in the “CASE OF 420 “. Now I didn’t know what to say and even if I know what to say problem is how to say. I was totally dumb at that time and was about to faint. Policeman told don’t try to be over smart. Then he asked about my address and I could just point my finger toward the driving license & I was feeling as if I had no tongue , there was no tongue movement or no sound was coming from my mouth at all .My tongue was stiff . He told me to signed the Challan . I signed it and he gave me a copy of that. It was Rs 2,200 challan.
I immediately came back home from that place (Actually i was going for shopping and couldn’t go for shopping after that HORROR incident).I told my father that I was having difficulty in conversing with a policeman ( but didn’t told him about MR HARISH ) and when I showed him my challan he got very angry on me – why you were not wearing helmet ? You waste a lot of money, You don't know the value of money .He then asked -where is your RC ? I told him I don't know.He got more angry that how come I didn’t know where my RC was . Actually the policeman had taken my RC and I was not at all aware of that (I was somewhere else –full of shame, guilt,fear and anxiety)
I cried the whole night :-( . Why all this happens to me ?? What wrong things I had done ?? I am 22 and couldn’t even say my name or address . I give so much pain to my parents . Why I was born to this earth ?? Why parents got married ?? Why God had made me like that?. I don't want to live anymore .