May 11, 2012

I Hate My School Life





All Students are always dream about their school life, college life like ‘What a cool life we had in school’ ‘May be those days comes back’. But I hatred my school days. There are not single moments where I live, laugh my school days. All the time I was crying, feeling ashamed of myself. Everyone laughs at me even my teacher’s . I do remember when I was in 6th, my math’s teacher told us to read those questions where you having problems, everybody standing and reading his questions. Now it’s my turn, when I speak first word w w w (What- is the word), I got very hard block then my teacher said “Mohit tum baith jao, jab tak tum bologe tab tak main upar chali jaungi”. These types of words now become frequent to me. Many teachers like my Hindi teacher, social science teacher, and English teacher are always depressing me by saying terrible words to me.

I was not having a single TRUE friend  who supports me, who understands my problem. All of them makes fun to me, start teasing in front of girls and girls also supports them, enjoy with them. All of them having a friends circle, groups and always doing fun and masti, but I was seating at last bench along wall side seat and praying when will the teacher comes and start taking their class because usually when there is no teacher in class, then only all students start teasing  me. I do remember neither my friends nor my teacher gives me any type of suggestion regarding my stuttering problem.

I don’t know why the teacher ranks 1st above parents as according to our Hindu mythology, but still I respect my old teacher but can’t forget those vicious day of my life. But yes one teacher I love to take her name, her name is Evon mam (Love you mam) he used to call me “Dun-dun” every time she saw me, she start kissing on my cheek (I still don’t know why). This is the only reason why I used to start avoiding my school. When my holiday or summer vacation gets over, I was again on my world of shyness, ashamed, frustration.
I didn’t participate in any annual function because I scared of myself, I have to say my name on stage. My brother and sister have got lots of prizes in their school time, but I don’t. At that time I hadn’t met any other stutter until I gone to college. Its 6years now when I left my school, but still don’t want to meet those school guys, never forgives those guys. Many of them send me a friend request in FB, but I never accept him except a few.  
My pain in school days can’t be described in one article, it requires 100 of them.I hate my school up to 10th, but from 11th I become much bolder because that time I realize when you are looser, people will hurt you more n more, but if you be strong, people will respect you more.

This things i never told to any body, Thanks to TISA where i can say what i want to.

Mohit Kumar (Patna, Bihar)-9905592774

6 comments:

Satyendra said...

It is good that you are unburdening your mind and heart. Past is past. Now, you have many genuine friends who understand you and respect you. Make the bst use of this PRESENT moment. Forgive past and forgive people in your past. Get on with life and do full justice to the present moment..
Thanks for sharing.

J P Sunda said...

Yes, Mohit. Life can sometimes be very unfair and painful, but look all that pain has lead you to so many genuine friends in TISA. Try to write more about your past experiences. Sharing decreases the burden and pain.

amit dixit said...

I can understand mohit your emotions..You know we do not live in ideal world and so we have to accept such type of people and circumstances.
Again as our good past experiences boost us to do better but other side our bad experiences pull our leg..so just forget the past and live happy.Someone said "if it not like that you expected,than it is sure it is not the End" Picture abhi baaki hai Dost.:-)

GORAV DATTA - I am Learning said...

You did a great job by sharing your past experiences , writing blogs on bad memories helps in diluting and accepting those memories .
Really "U are a khataro ka khiladi " .Keep writing and sharing , i want to know more about your past

Anonymous said...

i went to school in india since i was in 8th grade (i was born in another country and studied there til 7th grade). i'm a 15 year old girl and currently in 10th standard. i study in Punjab, India. thank god i found someone i can relate to. school is horrible. i can hardly understand what there talking about since i'm not fluent in Punjabi and know nothing about Hindi. my school life sucks. i don't have any friends. there all have the same thinking. the people are very narrow-minded and the teachers don't even care about the students. they think they're all superior and high and beat the crap out of us. i hate ALL the teachers especially my math teacher. she teaches so fast that i don't even understand a single thing she says and if you don't answer her questions she will slap you hard in the face. she's a complete moster.. Well, that's not all. wait til you get to see our school. first of all, we live in punjab (hello! it's so damn hot here) and there are no air conditions in our school. we have to bring our own food (roti), we are not allowed to bring other foods aside from roti, and obviously there is no cafeteria in the school. they just give out a stupid banana to everyone as a refreshment (lame, right?). we have to wear stupid uniforms with lots of stupid rules. we have to braid our hair ( like, WTF?. I suck at my homeworks and assignments. the only subject that i do "okay" are social studies and english. that's it! i failed my hindi and punjabi (obviously!) exams and i'm soon going to fail in my math and science! i hate my school life so much! what made it much worse are the teachers! they like slap us and humiliate us in front of the class. i'm really glad i found your blog. i can really relate to you. keep writing and posting! thanks for taking the time to read this!

Anonymous said...

i went to school in india since i was in 8th grade (i was born in another country and studied there til 7th grade). i'm a 15 year old girl and currently in 10th standard. i study in Punjab, India. thank god i found someone i can relate to. school is horrible. i can hardly understand what there talking about since i'm not fluent in Punjabi and know nothing about Hindi. my school life sucks. i don't have any friends. there all have the same thinking. the people are very narrow-minded and the teachers don't even care about the students. they think they're all superior and high and beat the crap out of us. i hate ALL the teachers especially my math teacher. she teaches so fast that i don't even understand a single thing she says and if you don't answer her questions she will slap you hard in the face. she's a complete moster.. Well, that's not all. wait til you get to see our school. first of all, we live in punjab (hello! it's so damn hot here) and there are no air conditions in our school. we have to bring our own food (roti), we are not allowed to bring other foods aside from roti, and obviously there is no cafeteria in the school. they just give out a stupid banana to everyone as a refreshment (lame, right?). we have to wear stupid uniforms with lots of stupid rules. we have to braid our hair ( like, WTF?. I suck at my homeworks and assignments. the only subject that i do "okay" are social studies and english. that's it! i failed my hindi and punjabi (obviously!) exams and i'm soon going to fail in my math and science! i hate my school life so much! what made it much worse are the teachers! they like slap us and humiliate us in front of the class. i'm really glad i found your blog. i can really relate to you. keep writing and posting! thanks for taking the time to read this!