Hello to all my busy stutter friends :-). Today I want to share my experience of two days ago. Our college went to a campus placement in Chandigarh. Most of the students of my class did not prefer to go there because it was a tough competition and other colleges were also participating. Perhaps facing interview and many other things there, made students to foot back. I don’t understand this thing, why fluent people feared with these things (I think if I was fluent then I would never missed these opportunities :-). But I accepted this challenge; I think why I am letting myself back due to my stammering. I will perform good or bad but at-least I will get a chance to face fear and challenge. I went there with my few friends; with a mind that I am not going to get a job but for enjoying the interview and enjoying the challenge. Around 1400 students there and I were in those lucky 600 who cleared the written test. I was not so much happy and surprise because it was not a challenge that I was waiting for. Technical interview started of all students one by one. Sometimes I feared by thinking that it may be horrible; but every-time when this thought came to my mind, I overlap this thought by this- ”I am not here to get the job, I come here to just enjoy the feared things”. This thought relaxed me a lot and all my fear started to melt.
After a long wait that waiting moment came, I took the seat in front of a young HR. First question- “Umesh, Tell me something about yourself”. I started to tell after a deep breath while he was gazing at my resume. But after two sentences my speech started to breaking out. I thought this is not a time to hide my stammer, I asked him “Sir, I have problem of stammering and I will took some more time to complete my words if you don’t mind”. He smiled and said ”Ok Ok, It’s not a big issue. Take your time and speak as you relax”. I never expect such words from an interviewer. I smiled and started to speak my own words with less fear. Then after listening few answers from me; he asked- “Do you know? Einstein also had this problem” I immediately replied-“Yes sir, also Newton and Hrithik Roshan have this problem”. “Tum tho sab jaante ho, fir kaya problem hai. Do you do something to work on your speech?” He asked again. I said “Yes, I am a member of TISA and we arranged self help meetings in Delhi. It really helps us to come out”. After few minutes of this conversation I stuck to a severe block when he asked to name my favorite subject. I tried but failed to say it, even with my technique like bouncing. I said “Sir, I can’t able to speak this name even with my techniques”. He politely said that ok; you can speak any synonym of it. Then I speak it with a starter (prefix word) and took a breath of relax.
Overall interview was good and he looked satisfied. Last question he asked that you had written in your resume; stammering in your strength points, why? I said that there was a time when I thought stammering is worst thing to me; but after joining TISA it is no more. I got so such nice friends because of it, I got a habit of speaking truth because of it, and many other things which would took a long time to describe here.That's why now I consider it as my strength not weakness. When interview finished, I went back to my seat with immense pleasure in my heart. I thought that now if I not selected then atleast I will not regret on myself that my stammering pushed me back. I have no right to say it now because I got fully time to speak and well understood. If I will not selected, it will only lack of my knowledge not my stammering.
What experience I got by this interview which I gave for enjoyment.
1.What we think in our mind is not always right.
2.We thought people will consider us in a negative way because of our ugly weakness but good and mature people never do it.
3.Good people are always supportive and feel our emotions.
4.We never let us down or back foot in any work due to our weakness.
5.We can face some challenges just for shake of enjoyment.
6.We can’t blame to society without involving in it.
7.Why we hide our self to external world? We can show what we are in real and it gives real happiness.
8.Sometimes weakness becomes strength if you implement it by right attitude.( Better to say this if I will get selected :-))