October 23, 2011

Life is a roller coaster


Well, it’s been a long while since I have posted something. I have been catching up on TISA news. The NC has been on a roll. I am glad that it has reached a national level and it is huge win for all us. Moreover a huge thanks for all those involved in making the NC possible. You all are doing a fabulous job. Keep it up!

A personal loss and a new job (first job as a teacher) were some of the reasons that I was off the grid for so long. It has been one roller coaster year for me. Let me go back a few months. I lost my mother in February and after that my stuttering did become a little severe. Since childhood it has been hard to share feelings and my inability to share the loss for some time did bring on the stuttering again. But I thank my friends and a few special people who really were my pillar of strength during those days of grief.

My first interview at the school where I am working was fine. I stuttered a bit during the demo and wondered if I will get the job. Thankfully I did get it and I am still at it. While teaching I do get those moments when I am ‘stuck’ or searching for words. Many times it has happened that my students provide the fillers and I send a silent thank you to them. I have realized that the fluency that I had last year is missing this year but I have not lost hope. I am still working towards it.

From B’Ed training to actual teaching has been an eye opener. I am in a school that propagates inclusive education and I have come across students who do stutter. I encourage them to speak in class, read. I realized that it also very important to sensitize other students about the ones who stutter. It is about creating an atmosphere of general respect in the classroom for each other. It is personally rewarding when a shy student starts interacting in class and does not need prodding from me to raise his/her hands to answer. There have been times when I wondered if I am in the right profession due to the huge amount of stress and lack of time for myself. But the students’ progress, their bright faces, their enthusiasm reinforces my belief that I can make a difference and I am in the right job. So, this was the quick recap of my life for the last 5-6 months. I will surely try my best to keep posting on a regular basis.

I would like to end with a line by Robert Frost- “But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep”

Regards,
Mugdha Benjamin

8 comments:

sachin said...

Mugdha- yes, losing a loved one is tough. But that is life.. I am happy that you are able to distance yourself away from things, so that you can write about them.. Never feel that you are alone. TISA is like a family. Inspite of our external differnces, we all have same experinces (in class room, in play field..). Keep sharing, keep talking and one day you will get on top...and keep making a difference in thea life of the children in your care..
sachin

Er. Umesh 9068322345 said...

Very nice work..You are also running a self group by providing more opportunites to shy students of your class. Hats off to you attitude!

lalit said...

nice Mugdha ...yesterday i was watching movie tare zamein pe where amir helping a student which having same problem as he. same as u r doing in ur school ....nice post keep on writing

J P Sunda said...

Mugdha, you surely are helping lots of young children to become more empathic towards their peers who may be different!

After reading the post, I must say you are a brave girl to be continuing with following your dreams of becoming a teacher inspite of the challenges that life is throwing at you.

Ashish Agarwal said...

Hi Mugdha,

First of all, let me congratulate you for such a sweet & refreshing name,Mugdha.

Now, coming to your comment that life is a roller caster, i would like to emphasis on Dr.Sachin's saying that we must try to distant ourselves from all the ups & downs of life as LIFE IS COMPLETELY A TEMPORARY PHENOMENON & by observing the incidents, we can experience this very nature of life.

Rakesh Jaiswal said...

you are great

Rakesh Jaiswal said...

you are great

Rakesh Jaiswal said...

you are great