change in my feelings

H h hh hello to all....
There was a time before 6-7 months, when i hate the word stammer or hakla . i feel vibration if someone talk in a stammering manner . i never talk to this topic. i know that i am also a stammerer but i think that if i accept this negative fact then i will be completely fall in the well of stammering. i always try to escape me from the stammering situations . sometimes when i perform well and make some impression, i thought that now i am out of this well and now after sometime my life will be quite normal . but it's not occur every time , sometimes difficult situation faced by me and i struggled so badly then my worst day start automatically . i again fell in my stammering well and more deep every time. it makes me upset every time and divert my mind from other important things of life .
But these days, situation is completely changed , i struggled more now but i does not take all this on my heart. if some one ask me, do you have some problem in speaking then i can say confidently that i am a stammer and i cant speak fluently every time . i can go independently everywhere, like the struggling situations to face . Speaking with eye contact is not easy but if we persist with it then the listener never dare to make fun of us . I missed many friends in my life because my nature was not so much talky but i thank to god that he give me so much PWS friends and we help each others with open heart. T th th thanks to dr. sachin and all tisa members . It is time of rising us.