Race

Yet another review gone with the wind!!!!
I've been continuesly told myself yesterday,"Santosh Go forward,be calm,be into youe own.Start communicating,Preapare your document well,study thouroughly & Accept your problem rather difficulty to speak fluently.

One thing I've noticed when ever I think that thinking also not fluent.WHY?
Is this the sin which ends with life?
But what about present? Is it so miserable that I can not communicate inspite of being such a hardworker in my own field?
These are the quiestions I always had in my mind with multiple answers that too not fluent..WHY?
As far as acceptance are concern before meeting I make it a deliberate point to meet my VP Sales & service to tell him what he alraedy knew.
I started... Sir can I take your few moments?....Yes He replied not looking at me.
I started... Sir You have noticed severel times that when I speak,some time I stumble on my word.So if you dont follow,please ask.
His sponteneous answer was ...Yes I will.
Thats it.
In my mind one thought came,This guy wants only results.
NO matter how evenly I communicate He wants results.
I thought I'm 40% through...
During presentation I started very well had no problem.
But as I proceed I got the feeling that I did not prepare that topic well & within no time ,I fumble & running behind words.& by the time I started,He Does it for me.Started Questioning..
Though I started & finished much better than my previous experience,lot of questions arrived at the same time.If I prepared well,I could have given my best shots.& thats it all.I dont want any body's sympethatic look saying Ok good You have tried really well. Better luck next time.But what if I do not prepared next time .Then?
Not only I have to accept but also have to prepare & perform well.
I think this is just a starting jeark.Race has just began.