My congratulations to you on the occasion of International Stuttering Awareness Day. I have decided to use this day to assess how much I am aware of my stuttering and would share with you some interesting things.
Before I begin, let me ask you a question, forget for a moment as yourself being a stutterer-
Whom do you want to listen to? One who speaks the words as if always in haste or the one who speaks with good pronunciation?
When I analysed my recorded conversations, I found that at non problematic words I was unable to pronounce words as it should be, let alone the stuttered words, so it further complicates the already fractured speech to the listener. The reason that I found is those fluent words are most often spoken in haste to compensate for the blocked, fumbled & struggled words. Our subconscious mind perhaps wants other to know that ‘Believe me I am fluent, I don’t know why I stuttered on some words before,see I am fine at other words’ and it’s a vicious cycle and we seldom comes out of it until a well conscious decision is taken.
Since a month I am working on my diction. I make sure that every blogs, article that I read is pronounced with clarity. Earlier I didn't attach much significance to this as I was unaware of the fact that it has got to do with communication skills also.Ask why? As a stammerer we are obsessed with not well understood by others, are not we? In fact I have noticed that during the conversation, we stutter on not more than 40 % of words used, yet this 40 % rules the larger half. In short we let these 40 % problematic words overshadow these 60 % of non problematic ones.
As a result of consistent practice,my speaking is becoming clear and a bit slow and I enjoy talking to my friends, colleagues, family with a sense of accomplishment that I can speak well.
Today also marks my 57th days of writing “Good things about today” in my daily journal. I have been doing this since 24th august. This has facilitated as record book of my major activities such as the time that I woke up at, calls that I made, place that I visited, tasks that I did for everyday.
I know " repetition is the key to habit ".