I had planned this trip two months ago. I had to visit Pune to meet my Guruji after a gap of three years. My mother and wife were to accompany me to have a vacation .
We went from Delhi to Pune and visited my Guruji. We did local sight-seeing for two days at Pune. We then visited Shirdi Sai temple and Trimbakeshwar Shiva temple near Nashik
I was most fascinated by visiting the ruins of palace of Peshwas(Shariwar Wada) at Pune. Our guide informed us about the grandeur of that palace in its hey days. Today's ruins are in sharp contrast to what the palace used to be about 300 years ago.
Since I returned from this trip, I often remember the royal life of the Peshwas and compare it with today's remains of the buildings. Our human life-span seems to be so short when we compare it with the age of old monuments, palaces , temples etc.
Now when I think about myself, I remember my foolishness in running away from my stammering. I had always thought that I could have achieved much more in life if I did not have stammering. But on remembering the ruins of 'Shanivar Wada', I think that those kings and their grandeur has vanished into the endless corridors of time.Our own lives are links in the vast eternal life.
I resolve again to use my life in constructive activities rather than dreaming about "what would life be like if I did'nt have stammering". I was not able to practice slow reading and other techniques for the past fortnight during this trip. After joining my office I observed that my stammering has increased. But I did not feel that I have committed a sin by not practicing techniques. I simply started my daily speech practices again without any feeling of guilt.
There are many wonderful things to do in this life than running away from stammering. But at the same time we need to work on our communication skills, various techniques, acceptance, emotional equanimity etc. and welcome life with open hands and a smile.