February 28, 2013

A different challenging situation


Few weeks ago, I was eating my dinner in a canteen with two new friends. One of them was passing comments & making fun of me on general friendly issue/topic.I tried to counter him with my words.Then he picked up all of my chapattis from my plate and started laughing. I felt very bad and immediately I picked up his chapattis in anger. Then soon he returned mine chapattis and I also did the same. Now he was laughing more and made another bad comment. I was angry at him and when I tried to reply him I started stuttering very badly that I repeated the first character 10 times of the sentence I wanted to say and so i could not complete the sentence .


Not able to say what I wanted to and this made me even angrier. And now he was making fun of my stuttering and tried to copy the way I did. Now that’s too much now I am going to kick your e’ss .

But soon I realized that physically am not that strong at all and also they were two.  The other friend instead of making the situation cool down, he himself was laughing and enjoying the quarrel between two of us. 

Now neither was able to do some physical activity (not recommended) nor was able to say something. I was full of anger and emotionally broken down. Now the heat and pressure inside me was coming to the surface and soon my whole body was shivering in fire. But somehow I controlled myself and went to my room there after finishing my dinner and cried for a while.

7 comments:

sachin said...

Painful- yes. End of the world? NO.
OK- so you have very bravely described what happened exactly and how you reacted to it. Great!
Now step back, take a few days and then again review the whole scene- and share what you have learned in the whole process..
Looking forward to that post..

Manimaran said...

They are not your friends at all.There is a limit for even to our friends for bullying. But I suggest you to talk to those friends again and tell them about your feelings. You can also ask them to read your post in TISA blog and see their reaction. Defiantly they will apologize to you. Pl try and share your experience here.

lalit said...

Hey gorav ,i thinks u should talk to them about ur stammer and how much it hurts they will understand .
apart from this i want to tell u that you write very well, i never miss ur post.u have ability to describe whole event in limited words.
today in morning i was talking to my brother about gift given by god to every one. then i realize iam dam good in day dreaming,since childhood can dream whole movie in one go etc etc,
may be this is ability of every pws bec he is not expessive . so brother is you too have day dreaming power then plz try ur hand in writing (whit ur studies),may be one day steven spielberg choose ur story to make his film. :-)

Blue Kite Dreamz said...

As per me do consider if these so called "Friends" are actually your friends....because friends do not belittle you specially on your weaknesses ..

Do have a check on your anger too..:)..you do not have to fight them..they are not simply not worthy of you wasting your emotions on them.. ...

Dinesh said...

No one is bad. It is only that they are ignorant. Mani Sir hit the nail on the head - share the article with your friends and see if you can help THEM!

Ashish Agarwal said...

Also gorav, i would like to congratulate on your act of CRYING as by doing so, you just liberated the pain of that experience.And liberation of pain will lead to shorten the life of impact of that incident in your life.

It is very very important to liberate the emotions like crying,screaming,shouting etc to make ourselves light and empty to absorb positive things in life.

By the way, i heard people saying that you have started speaking very very confidently these days :-)

Manimaran said...

Gorav, if you still not shown this article to your friends, then mail this page along with comments as a link and see their reaction. Nothing wrong in expressing your feelings. It will help you only.