In last weeks shg,while coordinating meet,i could feel my stuttering rise a bit,I didnt really think about it at that time.Then after the meet was over,another shg member shared the same concern with me.Driving back home,a chain of thoughts started inside of me-Is my stuttering really worsening due to the shg ????? Am I committing a mistake ????? etc.etc....I stopped the chain of thoughts(I am getting better at getting more aware of my thoughts nowadays :-) ) I just stopped thinking about it,and carried on with my life.
Then a couple of days after the meet,I found my answer from deep within.When I attend a shg meet with other pws,there is a high amount of pain body(explained in my previous post) between ourselves,that pain body is of fear,guilt,shame,etc.etc.All these pain-bodies get highly activated in each others presence and hence take over our body and as a result we start to stutter more and more.So is joining an SHG bad ????? Its not,if you look at the bigger picture.
A common complaint among all pws is-"I can talk easily in some situations but in others,I cant get a word out of my mouth."Its just that in those "not able to speak situations",the pain-body takes over our body and we are helpless to deal with it,and as a result go in severe blocks with no technique helping us whatsoever.
Here comes the most important role the SHG will play in my (and hopefully yours as well )-An SHG gives me the chance to deal with my pain-body when it is in the active mode,i.e. when it takes over my body,I have a chance in the shg to become aware of what changes comes inside of me when severe blocks occur,and take corrective actions accordingly. It gives me a chance to apply my presence and acceptance,so as to not allow the pain-body take over myself.
So,the next time you have a doubt in your mind that you are stammering more in shg meetings,take it as an opportunity to practice your control over your body instead of blaming the SHG's so that you become a better communicator in the outside-where it really matters.