Beyond (Dis)Fluency!!

As your perspective changes, so does your reality and the challenges existing in that reality. As a young boy who had a lot of negative labels attached to him, the biggest and most important hurdle in life seemed to be my STAMMERING! I kept on deferring living until I was FLUENT! After all no good is man who can't even speak his name properly, was what I used to think. The day I will become 100% FLUENT, I will do this and that. So I always had dreams that I will achieve in next six months or a year, when I will be fluent and the time just flew by and I kept on extending the deadlines when I will start living! Looks like madness to me right now but yes that was the reality at one point in time.

And here I am today still stuttering, left a well (actually decently ;-) paid job, trying to start my own company. Learning everything from scratch - socialising skills, technical skills, marketing skills, leadership skills, "having fun" skills and a lot more! You may be interested in knowing what has changed now ? What "technique" did I use - bouncing or prolongation ? Which therapy did try ? None of that has brought this long lasting change that I enjoy now, and to be honest actually nothing has changed EXCEPT MY ATTITUDE towards my own self!

Now I have a deep level of acceptance towards myself a human being who is imperfect! I will try to write a series of posts after this one, about acceptance. How did it translate from a concept to a feeling ? What were the things that forced me to take this route. I believe I owe it to a lot of young people out there!

P.S - The above post may give you an impression that I have completed transcended to a new state but I feel my body still carries a lot of pain which I hope will only go away only with time! Another thing I would to mention is that I still go back to my old patterns once in a while but the frequency is decreasing! and I am FINE with both of these! :-)