Hi Everyone…
I am just dying to share my experiences with you all as a B’ed teacher trainee. Let me start by saying at last I found what I love and am enjoying every bit of it…My first lesson was on 27th August but much before that I had to give micro lessons to my colleagues in college. It was a nice experience.
Well I was all nerves for my first class on 27th especially since it was my FIRST public speaking experience in front of a class of 60 students. The others in my group too were nervous but I was nervous for a totally different reason..the fear was what if I start stuttering..but as soon as I entered the class the enthusiastic “goodmorninnnnngg teacher” washed away all my doubts and my lesson went smoothly. I couldn’t believe that I spoke for 25 minutes !It was an English class and I had to teach a poem. Well there was model reading involved and I am glad to say that I managed it pretty well. Actually I am very much happy with the subjects that I have chosen to teach because first I love both English and history and both these subjects require a sizeable amount of interaction. Its nice interacting with students and we get to learn so much from them.
Recently I conducted an assembly and also read a poem for my teachers. I was nervous since I had to hold a mike. In my past experiences I had felt that I lose my cool when I hear my own voice and a mike amplifies the voice even more. I was a bit unnerved when I conducted the assembly but overall it went off smoothly. Though I thought I could have done better. A trick while speaking is to drive all your energy and concentration to your audience. In this way you don’t even realize that ‘YOU’ are at the centre stage and speaking. Also when we go for practice teaching our supervisors observe us and write remarks….Most of my remarks have been ‘Fluent, Confident’.. After all these years of getting ‘Should improve in oral subjects’ such remarks have been like a soothing balm……... What people say to you I feel always stay with you. Though it does not affect me now..it did affect me till a certain age. Looking at myself I sometimes can’t believe that I have come this far.....
I am sharing this experience with everyone because I want all of you to believe in yourself. If I could do it, you can also..I am not saying that 100 % fluency is achievable but keep trying and have confidence. The journey is long and endless but don’t lose hope…
Mugdha
9 comments:
You must have worked very hard to reach this high.Its commendable to muster courage and speak in front of a large audience.
kudos and praise :-)
congrats mugdha..........
Amazing story. Many young people undergo these self-doubts and questions about- will I be accepted by this group or that group?
Very natural. We need many more young people sharing such stories..Stories of hope, light- based on truth.
Finally a true story from a girl who stutters ! Well Done Mugdha.
Many children dont realise that the teacher (at least on day 1) is as scared as they are..With such fears on both sides, accidents can easily happen and shape the attitudes for the rest of life..I guess, the only antidote is to hope for the best and jump with both feet- with this feeling in heart: whether children accept me or not, I ACCEPT myself whole heartedly..
From there, the magic begins..
Hey- I remember my childhood- For me teacher was like a God. Whatever she did, became the gold standard.For a long long time in my life. I wish I could have told them that..
In my list of heirarchy of fears, I always thought that public speaking topped the list. However, to my surprise when I started taking guest lectures in University, I realised that this was not the case. What might be the reason? rehearsal? podium of power? I wonder. Today for me, round of introduction and raising a question from audience is more difficuly than giving a presentation!
Stammering does pose lot of problems for men. There is little social acceptance for it today. In our society, for girls who stammer (GWS), it may be even more difficult to cope with social reactions. What are the options? May be they should get in touch with each other and make a "tele SHG" of GWS..and may be, start their own blog. Is there a courageous girl out there reading these lines?
Great !! Awesome Story !!
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